Happy Birthday Carol. I really wish you were here. You know(and anyone who knows me) knows that I am not the sentimental type, but I think about you alot. Not everyday, but moreso than not, and I always will. I still wish I could visit with you on Sundays down at Mom's house. Anyway, I really miss you.
Carol, Today would have been your 50th Birthday, I never imagined you wouldn't be here to see it or to see mine since I'm not that far behind you (well ok 3 years is a long time ). It's a gorgeous day, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, it's about 70 degrees, a wonderful day for a birthday. Not a day passes that I don't think about you the majority of the day. My time at McBee has now ended too. Those 4+ years we worked together there were great weren't they? Brought us closer together than ever. Remember May 16th, 1981? We were driving through the mountains of Wyoming and it was snowing... those were the days! I hope to make it to Mountain Home, Idaho again someday, it would've been great if we could've made that trip together like we talked about. To see how much it's changed, remember the good times we had there. So many memories, unfortunately they'll have to get me by until I see you again, then we can catch up on everything. Here's a poem I'd like to share...
We do not need a special day to bring you to our minds. The days we do not think of you are very hard to find. Each morning when we awake we know that you are gone. And no one knows the heartache as we try to carry on. Our hearts still ache with sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you no one will ever know. Our thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill. In life we loved you dearly; in death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache, and often a silent tear. But always a precious memory of the days when you were here. If tears would make a staircase, and heartaches make a lane, We'd walk the path to heaven and bring you home again. We hold you close within our hearts; and there you will remain. Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same, But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again. ...Author Unknown
Happy Birthday!! I love you and miss you very much! Roger...
Hi Mom!! I know I don't come here as much as I used to, but that doesn't mean that I don't think about you EVERY single day!!! I think it means that as time goes on, I'm getting better with the realization that you are gone. As much as I hate that you are gone, I have come to accept it. Things here are going really good. We are back on track with bills and stuff. The kids are doing really good. We finally started the chore chart and rules and stuff, and it seems to be working really well so far. They miss you so much. Even Hayley talks about you. I try to talk about you all the time so she don't forget you. I don't ever want her to forget you. And I know Tristan won't ever forget you. He talks about you all the time too. I really don't know what else to say. Except that I miss you, but you already know that because I say it all the time!! Love you, Mom!!
Merry Christmas Mom!!! / Stacey Hilton (daughter) Merry Christmas Mom!!! We really missed you today!! But I know that you were looking down on everyone!! It rained today and I know that was your doing too!!! You were sad because you weren't with us! But you were there!!! I hope you liked the things I put on your headstone and grave today!! And the grave blanket we put on there Friday!!! I love and miss you very much Mom!! I hope you know that!!! I just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas...and tell Papa Merry Christmas for me too!!!! I love you!!!! Close
Your Mom Sounded Like / Angela Doggett (Friend of her daughter Stacey )
a wonderful mom and i know you miss her very much , my prayers and condolences on every birthday holiday and anniversary and I know her memory is alive in your heart 4 ever , Bigg Huggs, Prayers & Loves to you and your whole family
A year...gone but not forgotten!!! / Stacey Hilton (daughter)Read >>
A year...gone but not forgotten!!! / Stacey Hilton (daughter)
Wow....it's so hard to believe that it's been a year ago that I watched you drift out of our lives and to the Lord! It's been a rough year without you here. But, we have managed to make it through the hard times, with your help I'm sure!! We all miss you so much, more than you can ever imagine. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you, or talk about you! This time of year is hard, without you. You loved Christmas so much! I have all your decorations everywhere in our house and they remind me of you and your love of the holidays!! The kids miss you, especially Tristan!! He talks about you all the time! And, so does Hayley!! We all do!! I don't know what else to say. I have so much going on in my head that I want to say, but for some reason it just won't come out!! Just know that I love you and I miss you now more than I did a year ago!!!! I love you Mom!!!! Close
Thanks!!!/ Stacey Hilton (daughter)
Hey Mom!! I just wanted to thank you for looking out for us through this tough time!! I know that you were up there listening to my prayers for guidance!!! I still think you had a hand in it and was trying to test us to see if we could do it on our own!! And, we did...didn't ask anyone for help money wise!!! Now maybe things will get back to normal around here...whatever that was...LOL...I love you Mom and I miss you soooooooooo much!!!! Close
Happy grandparents day!! / Tristan Theiss (grandson)
Hi Mama Carol, I just wanted to say happy grandparents day! Hayley and me put some new flowers on your grave today!! I hope you like them! I know you will because they were from me and Hayley!! We miss you so much! I started 2nd grade a few weeks ago! I like it, but I miss Dakota...he moved over the summer! But I have other friends! Ummmm...not anything else to say, except I love you very much and I miss you very much!!!! Close
Chain of Comfort / Ann Reeves (passer by )
In order to comfort each other I would like to form a "chain of comfort". On the first of each month ay 10:00 pm we would all light a candle at home or on site (or both) and say a prayer for the loved ones we have lost, and ask for comfort for each other. If interestes please pass this on. God bless you, Stacey, Your mom must have been a wonderfu woman to have such a sweet daughter. I'll be with you August 1st at 10:00 pm Ann Reeves, mother of Eric Reeves 1981-2005 Close
Hey Mom!! / Stacey Hilton (Daughter) Hey Mom!! Wow, it's been awhile since I have updated the sight! A lot has happened in my life since I was here last, but I know you already know that!! As you know, Lewis got a job!! He loves it and we are finally getting back on track with bills and stuff! We've had to do it all by ourselves and that has been tough! I know now how much you helped us when you were alive and I loved you so much for that because you were always there when we needed you!!! But, we've gotten through the rough months and are doing better!! I celebrated my 31st birthday on June 25th, as you know! It was rough...I kept waiting for the phone to ring and have you on the other end singing Happy Birthday to me! But that call didn't come! But Lewis and the kids made it a good day for me! Not too much else has been going on. We miss you so much! I can't believe it's been 8 months since you went away! It's been a rough 8 months, but we are getting through it!!! I miss you Mom!!! And, I love you, always have and always will!!!!Close
Five months ago you left us, to go and be with the Lord. Five months ago we cried because you left us. It's been a rough five months! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. It hurts sometimes, ya know. I mean, one day you are here and the next day you were gone. It just doesn't seem fair! But, I know you are in a better place...A place with no suffering and no pain and that you are better off where you are! But there are so many times that I want you here with me...God, Mom, I miss you so much. Ya know that saying, "You never know what ya got until it's gone."? Well, that's how I feel. I never realized how much I needed you until you were gone! It sucks so bad! I need you so bad! I still got so many questions that I need answered. Motherly questions mainly...Like when the kids get older and stuff!! But I will have to ask someone else now! I'll get through this, I know, because you raised me to be strong...But it's so hard Mom!! It's really hard!!! Okay, I need to stop before I start to cry and I know that's not what you would want!!! Just wanted to say that I miss you, Mom!!! And, I love you!!!
Happy Birthday Mom!!!/ Stacey Hilton (daughter) Mom, I just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday! It's been a really tough day, for me and for Tristan! We went out to the cemetary and put some flowers and we put two angels that were yours on your headstone. And Tristan put a heart necklace that he made in school on there for you. He looked at me and started crying. It broke my heart, because I was trying to be strong for him and then he burst into tears! He misses you so much, Mom! He talks about you all the time and I have told him that you are up in Heaven, watching him and you still love him just as much as he loves you! They are doing stuff next week at school for the American Cancer Society and he is so excited to do the Mini Relay for Life walk like he did last year. And, we're gonna go walk with him, in memory of you!! I know that you are up in Heaven, with Papa and Grandma Fischer and everyone else that have gone on before you, celebrating your birthday!! Hope you had a good one up there!!! We sure missed you down here, I know that!!! But you never liked us fussing over you anyway..HaHa!! I love you Mom....very much!!! And, I miss you sooooooooooo much it hurts sometimes!! You were my best friend...I hope you knew that!!! I'm sure you did! No one could ever take your place, not in a million years!!! I don't talk to Matthew a whole lot, but I know he misses you so much too! He's not much of a talker, but I know he loved you so much!!! We both did and still do!!! Happy 49th birthday, Mom!!!!!!Close
Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!/ Jennifer Theiss (Daughter in Law)
Happy Birthday Carol.....You will be on everyones mind today, just like everyday. Matthew wants to try to visit you today, but it may be hard for him to go by himself. (I have to work) He cried for you last night when we realized it was midnight and it was your birthday. It is so hard for him sometimes, he misses you so much. You were his best friend, the one he told everything to, the one person besides me that he trusted. He isn't much for religion and believing in God but he reassures his kids (your grandkids) everyday that you are in heaven and that you are their angel watching over them day after day, making sure nothing bad happens to them. I sit and think of my relationship with my parents and I wish I had as close of one with mine as Matthew did with you, but I never will. I only hope the bond that we have with Natalie and Vince is as strong as the bond you had with Matthew and Stacey and your entire family. I honor you today Carol, to a great mother, a great grandma, a great daughter, sister, aunt, friend, and ofcourse mother-in-law. I miss you just as much as the next person, I wish you were here everyday, to help take some of the heartache away. We love you....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! Close
Today Vince asked me and Matthew, "where does Mama Carol live now?"/ Jennifer Theiss (daughter in law)
Carol, Tonight Vince asked Matthew and I, "Where does Mama Carol live at now?" Matthew responded with Mama lives in heaven now. Vince looked up at Matthew and said, "yeah Daddy, Mama lives up in the sky and she's an angel!" We both agreed with him, and Matthew continued to tell him that she lived with Jesus. It is so strange that he is so young but knows what death is already. But it is also beautiful to know that he is comfortable with Mama Carol living in heaven with Jesus "up in the sky." We miss you so much everyday Carol, you are a true inspiration to all of us, and from this day forward I promise you I am going to honor my family and my kids the way you always did, and not let anyone stand in my way!!
4 Months/ Stacey Hilton (daughter)
It's been 4 months since you went to be with the Lord!! It seems like only yesterday that you were here with us, laughing and talking!! You are missed so much, Mom, not only by me but by everyone!! There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you or talk about you!! I miss you so much, maybe more now than I did 4 months ago! I love you, Mom!!! Close
Happy Easter Mom!/ Stacey Hilton (Daughter)
Mom, I just wanted to say Happy Easter!! Even though you weren't with us physically today, you were here in spirit and I felt it!!! It rained in the earlier part of the day and I know that was you, crying because you couldn't be here to help us celebrate the day! But you did help us by being there in spirit!!! I hope you like the flowers I put in your vase! I thought they were pretty and looked spring like!!! I miss you so much Mom!! I can't put into words how much I miss you!!! It's only been almost 4 months and it feels like only yesterday that we lost you! I love you Mom!!! Always remember that!!!! Close
To Stacey/ Casey Hodges ((visitor to site))Read >>
To Stacey/ Casey Hodges ((visitor to site))
Stacey, thank you so much for the message you left on my mom's site. I think it is hard to put into words what it feels like to lose your mom, especially when they were so young and had so much left to do. I don't think it is something anyone can understand until they experience it. Just reading some of your messages on this page, I have a feeling our mom's could be very good friends in Heaven because they sound like they are a lot alike. My mom was my best friend just as yours was and she too never complained about her cancer. She was in pain I could never imagine and still cared only about how it was affecting her family. I'm so sorry your kids had to lose their grandma..I wish my mom would have had the chance to be one. I feel selfish sometimes because I know she's not in pain anymore and I have days when I wish she was still here so much even though she would still be suffering. People say it gets easier with time, I don't know if I believe that but I guess every day is one day closer to when we will get to see them again. God Bless You and Your Family. Close